So I have been made aware of the fact that rumor on campus has it that I am making up my pain.
I'm not surprised. The same rumors went around last time. I can even understand why this is happening. RND is sufficiently unusual that most people have not heard of it; it is sufficiently weird that it's hard to believe. On top of all that, it's very scary.
You see, if people admit this is real, they must also admit that it could happen to them as randomly as it happened to me. If they admit that, they realize how vulnerable they really are. If this is fake, however, than they are safe: it cannot happen to them.
Everyone prefers to feel safe. Unfortunately, that does not seem to be an option for my life.
About Me
- free_to_dream
- I am a bipolar, Jewish young adult (had my Hebrew birthday, the one I count, and turned 23 this past January) who also suffers from Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy. I love life and I live for my best friends: they are my purpose and my reason for trying so hard. I remain passionately devoted to those I love; I will not let my disorders make me totally self-centered. I like to read, write, and sew. My Rabbinical school plans did not work out, and I am now hoping to go into the field of Early Childhood Education. Please note: I am currently maintaining only Carried in His Hands. Enjoy!
1 comment:
I am so sorry you have to go through this again.
I commented on your other post but I've been thinking about you more since.
I feel very close to you, though you don't know me, and it might be odd but I care for you very much. This blog gave me hope for the future, that although my pain seems to be worsening and I'm increasingly thought of as disabled by others, it CAN be turned around. It can stop going downhill and get better again. You are the proof of that. You have helped me a lot.
I wish I could provide more comfort to you than just a few words on your blog. If there is anything you'd like to get out more in private, or have a chat, please feel free to email me. The offer is always there.
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