Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Updates

Sorry so long between posts. I have been dealing with betrayal by someone I thought was a friend. I must be rather cryptic on the Internet but suffice to say it's been difficult.

Last week my senior class at school went to Virginia Beach and I had an excellent time! We went surfing, shopping, and banana boating. Pain was roaring in the background the entire time, and I did have to talk about it some. It interferes with my memories of fun, but I am trying to hold onto them nonetheless.

I really have been in horrible pain the last couple of weeks. I just need to say that and have it registered.

Most excitingly, I graduated high school yesterday! I am done with high school! Wow!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

"Sometimes in my tears I drown, but I never let it get me down.."

My pain is getting worse. Part of the problem is that I simply haven't been able to get into the weight room after school every day due to senior class activities. Still, I think the pain was getting worse even when I was going daily.

Function is basically unimpaired--I discovered the other day that I can, in fact, run--but, and in some ways worse, my thoughts have been invaded. I feel pain; I think pain; I am pain. This has to stop. It has to. It must.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Not OK

I am not OK right now. I have been hurting a lot. I am very tired. I have been having trouble sleeping at night. I fell asleep studying this afternoon.

Life is stressful right now, wrapping up senior year. Stress feeds pain feeds stress...etc.

Not good.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Quick Update

In response to a comment from Clojio:

I'm not sure if my pain is less severe or not. I don't really think it is. I am getting used to living with it though, and other interests have captured my attention. For instance, I have an internship with the local office of my congressman this summer! Sorry for the lack of posting.