Updates

Sorry so long between posts. I have been dealing with betrayal by someone I thought was a friend. I must be rather cryptic on the Internet but suffice to say it's been difficult.

Last week my senior class at school went to Virginia Beach and I had an excellent time! We went surfing, shopping, and banana boating. Pain was roaring in the background the entire time, and I did have to talk about it some. It interferes with my memories of fun, but I am trying to hold onto them nonetheless.

I really have been in horrible pain the last couple of weeks. I just need to say that and have it registered.

Most excitingly, I graduated high school yesterday! I am done with high school! Wow!

"Sometimes in my tears I drown, but I never let it get me down.."

My pain is getting worse. Part of the problem is that I simply haven't been able to get into the weight room after school every day due to senior class activities. Still, I think the pain was getting worse even when I was going daily.

Function is basically unimpaired--I discovered the other day that I can, in fact, run--but, and in some ways worse, my thoughts have been invaded. I feel pain; I think pain; I am pain. This has to stop. It has to. It must.

Not OK

I am not OK right now. I have been hurting a lot. I am very tired. I have been having trouble sleeping at night. I fell asleep studying this afternoon.

Life is stressful right now, wrapping up senior year. Stress feeds pain feeds stress...etc.

Not good.

Quick Update

In response to a comment from Clojio:

I'm not sure if my pain is less severe or not. I don't really think it is. I am getting used to living with it though, and other interests have captured my attention. For instance, I have an internship with the local office of my congressman this summer! Sorry for the lack of posting.

Long and Painful Day

Today at school we had Israeli dance lessons in place of Hebrew classes. They were fun for approximately the first half. After that...painful. Long and painful. Then I went to physical therapy...painful. Long and painful. I did feel better for a little while after that, but now I am just Exhausted and Discouraged. Two more days until Spring break.

Tentative Good News

I really think physical therapy may be helping! My moments of full body pain on the treadmill have decreased: yesterday they did not happen at all and today they were shorter and less intense! I hurt less than I used to at the end of each day, and after therapy I feel GOOD for about half an hour to an hour. Small steps...but we're getting there!

Just Venting

My feet have been hurting a lot today. I mean a lot. Really a lot. I have also been experiencing stabbing and/or pressing headaches in random places on my head today. Also, it is now possible for up to five body parts to hurt at once, each with a different sensation. Grrr...